i am sorta back from vacation now... i am getting ready (right now) to go to Chicago for 2 weeks of internship/workshop type training for teaching...

and my vacation was full of sneaking time to call my cell phone messages only to find out how more of the world was changing and spinning and I was in Tennessee getting ready to go white water rafting... or in Ohio just getting back from a beautiful wedding... and vacation was 2 weeks long and very busy busy busy which i have decided isnt my most favorite way of spending my vacation... but never the less it was how i spent this one... and i feel terribly in love and sun filled... and i have so many stories and moments that i would like to tell you about, but I guess they can all be summed up with me saying:

i spent the last two weeks with the boy i am going to marry... one week with the family i will become a part of (someday) and the other with my family... who i watched welcome this boy into their arms and hearts with EXICTEMENT AND yes yes yes...

and he holds me with every inch of his arms when i feel tired and whiney and kisses my forehead always with "cheer up baby"... he has the most beautiful green eyes that sparkle every time i look into them to hear "i love you kel" or... "shut the fuck up" but its all the same. :) and he is terribly smart and beautifully aware of my feelings and heartbeat and our love which is terribly normal and perfectly romance movie-esque. and i still have a crush on him that makes me catch my breath sometimes.... like when he swings me around the dance floor... whispering in my ear " i wish i knew how to do this better but i am going to swing you out to the left and you are going to swing you back in for the finale".... and he kisses me like he means it.... everytime... except when i beg for it and then its with a smile and rolled eyes that i get it...

and we fit and we work and he makes my world better and more like what i need forever....

and today we talked about our wedding list and who we would invite and good news for you:

how we are getting everyone there and allowing them to leave with great memories, a good time and... a great drunken buzzzzzzzz

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox i am home(sorta)